525,600 Minutes

This has not been a good year for me. In February, my parents got divorced. In March, I met a guy who I thought was my soul mate only to find out that he was not and that he was just using me. It hurt a lot and I could not really talk about it. In April, Nico left. It was terrible. We all miss him a lot. In May, I started dating Allison. We were bad for each other. Awful for each other actually but I loved her. I was addicted to the love she gave me. It kept me high on life. It made me feel unstoppable when really, she was what was holding me back. In July she cut me out of her life and then in September she came back. I was so happy. I had so many prospects to do things right this time. I should have known that a zebra won't ever change it's stripes. She cut me out again after she gave me another taste. I found someone in November though that went through exactly what I had dealt with for what seemed like eternity. He understands my pain and we are getting through it together. It hurts a lot sometimes still but I am slowly erasing her from my memory and my life. I don't speak to her or anyone that knows her well. I don't deal with the bs anymore. If she tried to come back at this point, I would have the strength to turn her away. I would have the willpower to show her the finger and tell her that every time she comes around, I get hurt and that I have too much at risk now to try to even be friends with her. Honestly I think there will always be a part of me that will love her and I hate that about myself. I hate that I could love someone who hurt me so much. I just want to move on and block the memories. With the love, support and help from the people that I am close to, the pain is dulled quite a bit. I don't think it will ever really be gone though. So yeah. 2016 has not been a good year for me. It has been the hardest year of my life. I never ever want to deal with anything like this year again. Blow after blow, I am at my lowest.

Christmas Decorations... Yeah.. No......

Okay I hate decorating for things unless it's Halloween. I really really don't like to decorate for Christmas. Even if it were like Nightmare Before Christmas stuff, I probably would not have enough motivation to do it. I have decided that at my house in the future, the only decoration will be a statue of the Grinch from Dr. Seuss's How the Grinch Stole Christmas. I am a textbook Grinch. I complain when people play Christmas music before December 18th. I get upset when people decorate for Christmas before Thanksgiving. I may seem like an awful person but I think it's fair. My great grandma always had her house decorated before Thanksgiving. She died just before Thanksgiving a couple years ago and my great grandpa is in the hospital right now and he probably will not make it to Christmas this year. Honestly, you can call me a Grinch but I think I have a reason to be...

The Manila Envelope

Sooo apparently Hannah has one too. We are supposed to take out Trump and  Pence. We have to take a plane to New York and visit Trump tower. We are to get a room at the new hotel and with my amazing sniping skills I'm supposed to take him down. I believe this is an envelope from the Clinton campaign. The Clinton's have been tied to several mysterious deaths over the last twenty years. I suppose this would be nothing new to them. Enclosed in these instructions is 1,500 dollars as incentive. Hannah and I are to assume new identities as Tina Horse Wade Seyton and Meg Horse Danielle Francis Seyton and we are married and 22 year olds living in Denver, Colorado. Right now we are traveling the country.

If I Were You

The worst advice I've ever been given was from my mother. It was not even advice. She literally told me that I was not allowed to see her anymore. I fought my mom and she was shocked. I had never ever stood up for myself when I was told to do something. I was raised to be an obedient child. I never even dreamed that I would stand up to my mother. After I called her out, she let me keep seeing her. She didn't like it but that did not matter to me. I loved her and I was not going to let my mother control my life. I had to learn and make my own mistakes. I made a lot of mistakes. I fought for her and then she left. I'm okay now. It just hurts sometimes that I fought so hard to keep her and then my mom ended up being right. I guess I should listen to my mom more often. I might take her opinions into more consideration now. I probably will never do what she thinks is right but as long as she lives, she will try to tell me how to live my life. I just have to be strong enough to break away from her and live for myself.

Family Tradition

Okay so last year my great grandma died around thanksgiving. My family has a knack for not exactly being great at cooking, but grandma was the worst.... Growing up, I remember the holiday dinners at Avanti's because she could not cook to save her life. The years that she did cook for thanksgiving, she always bought a pre-cooked turkey. You can't ruin it right? It's already cooked, all you have to do is heat it up. Well grandma ALWAYS ruined the turkey. She would take the turkey and cook it. Not just heat it. Cook it. She would actually cook it. For about eight hours. A PRE-COOKED TURKEY. COOKED FOR EIGHT HOURS. It was always dry and stuck to the roof of your mouth. If you have ever seen Christmas Vacation, grandma's turkey was like the deflating turkey that the aunt makes in that movie... It was terrible. In honor of my grandmother however, my cousin Mary Beth made a turkey last year..Grandma style. None of us complained. We all missed grandma and it was a hard thanksgiving for all of us so we came together as a family to feel better. I think with that symbol of a double cooked turkey, grandma will always be with us. I bet we will have a grandma turkey every year in honor of her memory. Love you Grandma, you'll always be on my mind♡


the turkey in case you haven't seen Christmas Vacation

A new sport

Okay so if I could create a new sport, it would be based off of hockey and be played during the zombie apocalypse. For different body parts that they get into the goals, they get a different amount of points. For every head, you get a point, because they're big and easy to hit. Ears are two points because they are smaller but flat like the actual puck. For three points, you need to score with an eyeball as it is pretty small. Fingers are like the golden snitch of Zomkey. They are worth fifty points if you score with them behind half court. If you get a finger from half court, you pretty much win.

Happy Halloween

So when I think of villains and monsters celebrating Halloween, I think of the dinner with all of the serial killers in season five of American Horror Story. On "Devil's Night," Aileen Wuornos, John Wayne Gacy, Richard Ramirez, Jeffrey Dahmer, James Patrick March (the owner of the Hotel Cortez), and special guest of honor, John Lowe, all attend a dinner hosted by March. They celebrate by bringing in a man who is then promptly stabbed to death by all of the killers. I loved this episode. It was my favorite one from the season. I loved the idea of all of the serial killers coming together once a year and having a reunion. I think it's a very creative and beautiful idea that one man can bring so many bad people together and get them to get along. I also am just a serial killer fanatic. I love learning about them so I really loved to see them interact with each other.

Everyone's a Critic

Hi my name is Anna and I am addicted to Pulp Fiction.
 Okay so my favorite movie is Pulp Fiction, directed by Quentin Tarantino. I watch it 4 times a week. I know it by heart. I remember the first time I watched it. I was at a party at my cousin's house. We had a great time. The 7 of us piled into my cousin's bed and watched it on her laptop. The 7 people include:
1. Autumn (My cousin who owns the laptop)
2. Ryan (Her boyfriend)
3. Dylan (My sister)
4. John (My cousin, he was not interested in the movie)
5. Logan (He WAS my brother... I don't wanna talk about it...)
6. Sebastian (My cousin who passed out halfway through)
7. Me!!!

So anyway we all watched this movie and because of my cousin Autumn, I watch this movie 4 times a week.. I had my uncle's copy of the movie for so long that he told me I could just have it so now I have 3 copies of Pulp Fiction.

Dear future me

My dearly beloved,

First of all, YOUR MOM IS AWESOME. Second of all, behave yourself. I don't need that sass, sir. I love you so much. I just hope that your life, especially through your teenage years, is easier than it was for me. I was very depressed when I started sixth grade. I eventually got out of it about a year and a half after I met your dad. Side note, don't talk back to us, we will kick your ass. You remember Aunt Nadia? When she was young, grandma and grandpa got divorced. She really struggled with it. I SWEAR IF YOU EVER ACT LIKE YOUR AUNT DID, YOU WILL NOT SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY. But seriously, she had a horrible tude all the time and it gave me serious anxiety. I am so glad that she and I got our stuff worked out before you were born. You would not have been seeing much of your aunt if we hadn't. Most of all, I want you to understand that I love you and I want to give the world to you. I am sure times will be tough and if I get upset and cry, please don't cry with me like I did to my mom. It makes it harder when you hear your own child cry because you are sad. For real though, Harambe is life. He was a god in my day child. I've made a list of rules for the house.

1. Pick up after yourself
2. Please don't fight with me...
3. Know that I love you unconditionally
4. Try not to be as sad as Mama
5. Remember that you are perfect to me
6. Stay strong
7. Ask for help when you need it
8. Don't be afraid to talk to me. I am your best friend
9. Be nice to everyone. You don't know their story.
10. Praise Harambe.

Another Time

If I could choose a decade to live in, I would have to go with the 60's. If I lived in the sixties, I would be able to be myself with a bunch of other people that are exactly like me. I would go to Woodstock in 1969 in New York. I would've loved to go to Woodstock. There were so many musicians that I love that played and I wish so badly that I could have gone. I would have loved to see Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, The Grateful Dead, Arlo Guthrie, Santana, Canned Heat, CCR, The Who, and Jefferson Airplane. I love all of them. I've always told my mother that I was born in the wrong era. I think in a past life, I was a hippie that loved all of that music.

A New Perspective

The movie I picked is set in New Orleans and the main character is Tiana who is NOT a princess. She is not whiny or dependent on other people. She is a woman that stands on her own two feet. Anyway that is my favorite thing about Princess and the Frog because I feel very independent and I am totally okay by myself. It took me a long time to realize that but I am alright by myself. So when I first saw it, I loved the movie. It's a disney movie that came out in 2009. I've loved that movie ever since the first time that I saw it and I sometimes find myself breaking out in song. I would love to see it in the perspective of the voodoo man, though. He was by far my favorite character in the entire movie. He's very complex and he's got a lot buried that we don't necessarily get to see all of. We can make inferences that he sold his soul to the devil but he never out and out said it. Another thing is that he seems to be evil throughout the whole movie but in my opinion, he is a man who is trying to win back his freedom from the devil. He is very dark and he seems to have a lot of fun torturing people but I think that deep down he really doesn't want to hurt people.

Meg's Doodles

I tend to doodle flowers and viny things on the margins of my notes. A lot of times though my favorite thing to do is doodle the hill from The Nightmare Before Christmas. I like a lot of Tim Burton movies so I do a lot of scenes from his movies. I once doodled a full body picture of Edward Scissorhands on the side of my paper. I really enjoy doodling because I'm a pretty artsy person. I really love drawing the Harry Potter crests and the little doll from Coraline too. I really love all of those movies and I think they are a big part of what shapes me into me.

My Favorite Shows

Okay for starters I am so happy that American Horror Story is back on. I like the idea for the new season. It is done in a different way and I really like it. I won't give anything away but it's great. I'm making Hannah record all of them for me so that I can watch them since I don't get FX. Second off, I am SO EXCITED for Scream Queens to come back on on Tuesday night. I LOVE Scream Queens. It's bound to be good. The creators are the writers from Glee and American Horror Story and it is hilarious yet suspenseful. I am also excited for my favorite show to come back on on October 13th. That's right. Supernatural is coming back. I'm gonna die. All of my favorite shows are coming back and I can't wait for them to start. BTW NEXT WEEK IS THE FALL EQUINOX AND THAT MEANS HALLOWEEN IS COMING. PREPARE YOURSELVES CHILDREN. THE WITCHES ARE COMING.

Roschach's Chart

Okay so I really don't know what to do for this blog because I don't see anything but bugs. I have however learned about the Roschach's charts. They are used for psychoanalysis for patients in the mental wards. They would use them and then based on what the patients would see they would then carry out further treatment. It's an interesting way to decide medical treatment for people but at the same time I think it is inaccurate. Everyone is different so there is no real way to categorize the patients needs. I'm not exactly sure how he came to the conclusion that this chart works for everyone in the same way. I would like to see his thought process and his research on the charts effects of patients.

Excuses, excuses...

Generally when I don't do my homework, I just tell my teacher that it isn't done. I don't make excuses for my faulty memory or when I just get lazy and don't do it. Last year I forgot to finish my entire grammar packet at the end of the year because I had so many other assignments to complete. When I came in and it was due, I told Hudson that I completely forgot to do it. I can come up with a pretty good story though. 

"So first I was walking along the bridge and the zipper on my bag broke. Then all of my papers fell out and I tried to get them. Thankfully the one or your class was there. Then my dad pulled up and picked me up and as we were driving, a butterfly flew past and a cormorant flew in the window (sorry guys I love Bob's Burgers...) and the stupid bird ate my homework that I was trying to work on. I cried. I literally cried Ms. Hudson. I feel so bad about losing it. Can I please have another copy and another day?" *inflict doe eyes*

How is school?

School is going really well for me. I am staying organized and on top of my school work this year. My goal is to stay on top of everything this year and make sure I keep my grades up. I need to prove to myself that last year was just a hard year for me. I struggled to keep my grades up to par and I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. I want my senior year to be as simple and least stressful as possible as I enter into the world of adulthood. I am happy to be back because I get to spend every day with my friends for one more year. My most challenging class is pre-calc... It is terrible. It's going to be awful but I'm going to try extra hard to make sure I understand it. I am looking forward to class games, as always. I'm also looking forward to the trip that Hannah and I are taking after we graduate in the spring. I'm so excited to go on the road trip with my best friend and I will do anything to make it happen.